waking up ...

to Bach suite no. 6 in D minor is probably one of the best things on earth ....

unfinished books ...

was looking at my book shelves the other day, and there are soo many books which I have tried to read ~ Ulysses, The Tin Drum, a bibliography by Gabriel Garcia Marquez ... but never beyond the first 50 pages ... and at the moment, it is the same with my pharmacology revision. Like a tango - 2 steps forwards, 1 step back (or is that the waltz? ~ sorry, I never really grasped ballroom dancing, despite doing it for a year?!?!)

anyway, am reading "beloved" by Toni Morrison, and it is good & finishable ... so, back to pharmacology ... :)

yesterday ...

... was the last day of our 10 weeks surigcal revision course. Somehow, we all got very sad (yeah, medics is a strange brunch!). Maybe it was the fact that the "studenty" chapter of our lives is finally closing, and somehow, we are all going to graduate, have "our own patients" to look after. 6 years ago, in-between all those exams we sat, being able to reach this point seems so far far away .. all a bit mind-blowing ...

... was also a very good mate's birthday. I haven't organised surprises for people for ages. Got her a cake with a candle to blow at the ultimate hospital canteen (not the most promising place, but we had 15 minutes for lunch, in between of tutorials). But it is wonderful how a small act can bring a smile, a sparkle to someone's lives ...

So, yeah, if you are reading this, be spontaneous today, do something which will bring a big smile to someone's face (as smile is infectious!)

our house ...

I'll light the fire
You put the flowers in the vase
That you bought today

Staring at the fire
For hours and hours
While I listen to you
Play your love songs
All night long for me
Only for me

Come to me now
And rest your head for just five minutes
Everything is good
Such a cosy room
The windows are illuminated
By the sunshine through them
Fiery gems for you
Only for you

Our house is a very, very fine house
With two cats in the yard
Life used to be so hard
Now everything is easy'
Cause of you
And our la,la,la, la,la, la, la, la, la, la, la.....

summer night & directions ...

Last night, I was walking home, and for a split second, it was liked being back on holiday! Such a glorious summer night (okay, I had a jacket on, but one cannot expect toooo much at London)! With the gentle evening breeze, few scattered stars, I can even imagine being in flip-flops (really last-season, I know!), sipping drinks at Chicago, with not a care in the world. Never mind, hopefully, in 8 weeks' time, when everything is over, I can again be sipping drinks at Vienna :)

Anyway, someone asked me for direction last night. Normally, I am one of those really annoying people who do not have a clue about anywhere (even if I live there), but it was on my road, so even I got that (and was actually quite chuffed!) ... but I didn't know which house she wanted, so I left her on the road (excuse: my road has about 25 houses on each side) ... it turned out the house was directly opposite mine ...

so there you are ...

Aeschylus ...

"And even in our sleep

pain that cannot be forget falls drop by drop upon the heart,

and in our own despair,

against our will,

comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God".

accident ...

Don't know whether you have ever watched the film - "Sliding door"? How a split-second difference changes the course of your life ... (know that it sounds like an action-packed film, but it is more in the romantic genre!) Anyway, yesterday, somehow, I ended up crashing with a cyclist at the back of the hosptial (the situation was quite complicated, and to be honest, probably 50% faults each side) ... she wasn't hurt very badly (and I only had a few scratches), but if it was a car, I would definitely not be writing this blog now. It kinda bought everything into prospective. All these revisions/stress/demands on our daily lives really do not matter in the whole eternity scheme! also, unless I become mega famous (even that is short-lived now, given how celebrity-overloaded we are!), the only people who will care are those who love us, and it is bizarre how we salve away to gain approvals from those who don't. But in a way, it is in human's nature to want "what-you-cannot-have", as otherwise, why is there advertising at the first place?

Woo, this is a bit depressing for a blog (I am generally a very uplifting person!!!) , but hey, this is indeed life!

blue sky ...

Wooo - the sun is out today, at last!!! By the middle of April, even London has seen some sunshines!!

Was talking to an Aussis yesterday, and just realised that Melbourne will be quite cold in July ... dont' really know why I was under the illusion that their winter will be "warmer" than uk's summer?!?! Probably wishful thinking on my half ... Oh well, I am still going to Australia this summer, even if it is freezing ...

Shouldn't be sitting in a rom typing on a glorious day like this, so adieus!

post ...

Life is indeed full of surprises! Something which I would have been sooooo happy to receive 4 months ago, suddenly arrived out of the blue yesterday ... but because of change in circumstances etc, it bought more surprises than joys. It got me thinking about life (as one does!). Sometimes, I can be sooo caught up in the "I want it now" mode, and can literally become crazy/stressed. Yet, once that moment passes, I am back to normal, and it does make you question as to whether you want it at the first place?!?

But then, the other day, I let something (not very important) go and I was asked "why?". Because I didn't want to fight, and to demand my rights ... but is life only beautiful if one has to fight for it? So that one can cherish it more?

Hmm, God knows, but hey, it is Easter sunday today, a day of Hope & fulfilled promises ...

to start ...

This is the first time I have ever set something like this up, and to be honest, I don’t' really know what is going on (you shall see that this is quite typical of me!) ... anyway, I am a final year medic, one of those frequently despicted character on TV, but do actually exist in real life! At the moment, my life consists of revising for some pretty scary exam at the end of June ... which means, sitting at the library all day, reading the "cheese and onions" (= read "oxford handbook for clinical medicine"). It only has 874 pages and is an actually quite small book, but it has got the end of me, hence this blog … (it does follow prefect logic! :)

Anyway, whoever you are, thank you for reading this … sorry for boring you, but hey, I always wonder what people write on their 1st blog, as one must have some sort of audience in mind?!?!